This has only been my introduction into highschool and I'm already burnning with ideas and excitement!! The drama play is what sparked this all up but it's been waitng to come out . . . drama clud, ink (creative writing club,) swim team, Paxon student government, co-editer of the Paxon newspaper and I forgot what it is called at the moment but it's m,aking up th yearbook which could include me being a photographer, oh so many ideas such big dreams and only 4 years to prove myself. And always in the bak of my head, how will this look on my resamae, what colledeges will except me, am I thinking too far ahead, do I need to just focus on my work right now or what????????

Oh and a large concern of mine, the rule that I condone myself to, I must pay no attention to guys or wanting to be with someone, besides I am only a young adult and in no means whatsoever am I ready for a relationship, I'm too indicicive. And plus I fall in love with being in love so take note guys and remind me to stay with this strict rule help me reinforce it and we ill all be sucessful w/o someone who could drive you crazy. I know some of you may disagree but this is just for me I will be single and loving it because I will be focused w/o any extra concrens.

OMG LOVING LIVES (THE PLAY) WAS SO F----ING AMAZING IT WAS FABOLUS EVERYONE ELSE MISSED OUT!!!!!!!!!!! I WOULD LIKE TO GIVE OUT A SPECIAL CONGRAULATIOMS TO: MY SISTER FOR PUTTING ON A SPECTACULAR PERFORMINCE, MATT FOR BAREING THE WEIGHT OF THE DRAMA PLAY ON HIS SHOULDERS, CAROLE FOR BEING HUMERIOUS AND OF COURSE NICE TO LOOK AT, JARED FOR PLAYING HIS PERFECT CHARACTER FOR HIM (THE 1 W/THE EGO THAT KEPT GROWING LOL,) MORGAN FOR HER OBVIOUS TALENT (ONE OF HER MANY,) ADAMS FOR GETTING SO INTO HIS CHARACTER I WILL BE CONFUSED WHEN I SEE HIM AND HE ACKS HIMSELF, OH AND FOR BEING MENTOR TO ME NOW, I REALLY DO LOOK UP TO YOU, OH AND BEN'S OLDER SISTER FORGIVE ME FOR FORGETTING YOUR NAME ANDBEST FOR LAST MRS. CHATMEN SP?FOR GIVING ALL THESE TALENTED ACTORS TIME TO DO GREATLY UNFORGETABLE I LOVE YOU ALL YOU ARE SO WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This play has made me reflect on a lot of things (for some reason unknown to me maby because of it's brillance) I want to be recognized too not someone recognized for recognizing someone else so I will try hard and make that a goal along with becoming a better conversationalist. That is all . . .

wait . . . LOVING LIVES WAS THE BEST EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

with whole new prespective,attitude and ideas- Dessirae

Y ou know some things I will never understand; I am not a material person at all and fuck it if a dog pisses on your carpet. What I don't understand is why dad and Lisa is making Dinah and I get rid of our dog Dutchis when we have had her all our life. Getting rid of that dog is like getting rid of a piece of my mom so fuck that I will find a way to at least see Dutchis how could someone be so inconsiderate and heartless no I love my dadand Lisa but that is fucked up and I will hold a grudge because dad put 2 of my dogs to sleep without telling us and this is our last dog that I am emoutionaly attached to. FUCK MATERIAL THINGS EVERTHING IS MADE TO BE BROKEN! YES, I AM A BIG STUBBORN ASS AND I WILL GET WHAT I WANT!!!!

So I finally have a Southside Gangsta name Kid-dizzle because I am the most innocent out of the whole group, the baby, well what can you do? lol Ok please comment and tell me if you like it or not thanks guys.

So anyway I had a good Friday besides the fact that I definatly failed that Mythology test I know it but besides that fact today went well. Dinah and her girlfriend are doing really good I am really excited about this one! She is awesome nice and she makes fun of which is always funny it is sad but true lol but; don't worry I pick back it's just I do do  really ditsy things sometimes I admit my ditsyness but what can you do I guess it's just me.

I got to talk to Heather and my cousin Daniel on the phone tonight (sepretly) twas great heaing from them both! Heather and I might go and do something with her tommorow hopefuly go to Panera and Starbucks but it's up to my dad. And I really miss you Daniel I can't wait to drive up and see you in my sister's new car! I love you guys!